Wednesday, April 28, 2010 | 1:35 AM
My venting corner
I can't slp so I jus tot of this corner tat I can cry to...
my heart doesn't feel good... I don feel energized I don feel happy anymore?
y? suddenly I'm jus scared of everything? I'm a lost kid in an unfamiliar place?
I don noe who am I.. I don noe who can be trusted who is real?
aft everything I'm tired. I'm sad. I'm lonely. I'm stress. I'm hurt.
I hope god can help me out lead me to a better life. I noe u r has been always there for me. I noe there's no one who can help me only myself. I'm really trying very hard. I always think I'm strong but I realise I'm not.
I noe it happen in this way I nd to be blame. I don blame him for everything.
now I think back. I didn't do enuf as a gf. I shouldn't be so ego. I shouldn't care so much for my pride. I didn't show much of my love. but I didn't haf chance to do it or change it. I regretted. it really hurts a lot. how I wish I can forget everything. how I wish I can forget e pain. who can I trust? I really miss those days. i miss e love, dote, care, hug n voice. i miss i can share everythin wif u. i feel comfortable wif u cos u noe me inside out. I feel proud n I tot I noe u very much but I'm wrong. I still trying figure y u can change so much? y u would do all these to me I always believe u love me a lot. I always believe I will be e one breaking ur heart but I'm wrong. am I really such a lousy gf?? y mus be during this period I noe e truth? I can't seems to concentrate on my studies? my exams r coming but I really had no heart study. but I'm freaking scared u r no longer here to console me no longer here to support n encourage me. u really turn my life upside down. this is even harder than I tot. everything jus seems so wrong. nothing feels correct now...........
