-Evelyn aka Boss
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Shut Up and Let Me Go - The Ting Tings

Its been almost 6 months my last post haha..
tats pretty long...

Hmmm... trying to get a hold of myself...
trying to be strong...
trying to get my life back..

My life isnt e same anymore...
whether is work, studies, r/s, frens...
Been busy coping wif sch n work life...
been busy healing my wound..

aft tat incident, everything changes...
my circle of frens...
it start to make me wonder...
am i a fuck up person??
haha am i unlikeable person??

i jus feel nobody understand me well enuf..
Not even e once closest n part of my life person understand me..
i still can expect who to read n understand me??

even though almost a year haf pass..
everything seems like jus happened ytd...
i will still think back..
i jus feel so unfair..

yeah mayb she is more socialable towards ur frens..
but do i haf a chance to go out wif ur frens??
u didnt let me haf e chance to do tat..
mayb she is richer than me??
so tat u wouldnt be stress over money probs..
she wouldnt ask money frm u..
ya im spendthrift..
mayb she is smarter than me..
mayb her character is better than me...
all these i don deny..

i don think i haf a good character..
i don think im a good person..
mayb i shld start doing something to myself...
haha e prob shld lies with me...
aiya i think im jus too stubborn...
kp blaming ppl..

Look back at those msgs u sent to me...
which suddenly appear in my phone when i reset my phone tat day...
all e care msgs n pretend to be nice msgs during tat period..
i feel so fake n disgusted..
i jus feel r those real??
wats in e past is it real??
is it true tat feelings can change tat fast??
im jus thinking y do u haf to lie to me...
i think if u nv lie, things will not get so fuck up..
we will not end it badly..
n we will haf a chance to be frens??
but u make it to be like tat..

n cos of u things in my life changes...
n thanks to u im stronger...
thanks to u i see e real side of e world..
even though i still think of e past
i do feel lonely at times..
but no regrets..

im jus being who i am...
jus feel a bit far apart frm tat particular someone..
jus don wanna make my sadness become their sadness too...
don wanna make them feel sorry for me..
n i don wanna become a burden to them..
jus hope they r enjoying their life..
mayb she will think im throwing her aside..
but i did not..

i don intend to explain myself..
i scared it will only makes things worse...
jus let nature takes its place...

for now... i jus wanna forget n healed 100%..
n i jus wanna enjoy my life..
n work hard...


Everything will be fine n alrite evelyn teo..
U haf to be strong..
Time will cover everything..
Everything is in fast speed now..
U jus haf to concentrate on ur work, ur frens
family and time on how to enjoy..
U haf no time to think abt other stuffs..

no matter how hard u think or how sad u r..
Things will not change..
everything will jus gonna be e same..
n its meaningless...
ppl alrdy don gif a damn abt u...
Ppl alrdy long forgotten abt u or this incident...
Its alrdy a past for tat someone..
He alrdy moved on..
Y u still bother...??
Y u still care??

Haha evelyn teo wake up man..
Don being so naive or stupid..

Jus don understand y i can cry when listening
to one particular song..??
Y i still weeping??
I tot i will not cry anymore haha...
jus cant control e tears frm falling..
Find myself so stupid...

Everything is so stupid frm e start...
Haiz watever..
Love is not my kind of thing...
n i think nv will it be my kind of thing...
wats love??
I don think i understand it...
I doubt a lot of ppl out there noe wat love is...

As i grow up, i see e changes in e world..
Humans r getting to be more n more like freaks...
I don noe.. e world is changing..
Its not how it use to be...
Haiz.. I jus wanna earn more money spend more money
n enjoy to e fullest n die wif no regrets...

Nobody is trust worthy now..
Its jus so scary,,,
Frm now on i will put my shield protection back on..
I nd to become e old me..
I nd to be like a man..

LOL im too man...
Mayb tats y nobody look me as a woman lol...
Haha its jus meant to be...



Mayb u think im childish...
Mayb u think im irritating...
Mayb u think im stupid...
I jus don noe y im like this...

Mayb u think tat in FB i keep shooting u..
I cannot stop myself from doing that..
I jus don noe y???
Mayb i think tats e only waY i can communicate wif u now...
Mayb i still wan ur attention...
sometimes when i see u online...
i jus got e urge to chat wif u...
n im wondering..
u really totally forgot abt me??
tat dinosaur really replaced me??
u reallly treat me like transparent glass??

i don noe i really don noe...
i wish i can stop all this nonsense...
i wish i can stop thinking...
i wish i can stop viewing ur profile to noe ur whereabouts...
n to noe abt tat dinosaur whereabouts too...

I seriously noe tat ur r together but somehow in a small corner inside me
im lying to myself...
I jus don noe y im like tat...
suddenly i jue feel so weak...
I jus feel tat im no longer tat evelyn teo i use to noe...
Im no longer tat strong...

Everything seems so diff...
Everything seems to haf changed...
Nothing feels e same...
Nothing no longer e same...

Haiz... im wondering when cAn i wake up???
WHEN WHEN WHEN??
Its jus so irritating...
I hate myself...

i promise i will stop all these nonsense from
this moment onwards..
I will not disturb u anymore...
I will totally get out from ur life..
n u too from my life...
i will try my very best which i noe tat u alrdy did it...
n u did it very welll...
cos theres someone replacing me to make u easier n faster
forget everything...

THANKS to tat dinosaur...
i will haf to say she is ugly n fat...
Sorry im always like this...
u shld noe it 4 yrs and 9 months ago...



"Stupid In Love"

Stupid in love Oh Stupid in love
Let me tell you something
Never have I ever
Been a size 10In my whole life
I left the engine running
I just came to see
What you would do if I
Gave you a chance
To make things right

So I made it
Even though Katy
Told me this would be nothing
But a waste of time
And she was right

Dont understand it
Blood on your hands
And still you insist
On repeatedly trying
To tell me lies
And I just don't know why

This is stupid
I'm not stupid
Dont talk to me
Like Im stupid
I still love you
But I just cant do this
I may be dumb but
I'm not stupid

My new nickname
Is you idiot(Such an idiot)
Thats what my friends
Are calling me when
They see me yelling
Into my Phone

They tell me let go
He is not the one
I thought I saw your potential
Guess thats what made me dumb
He don't want it
Not like you want it
Scheming and cheating
Oh girl, why do you
Waste your time
You know he aint right

Telling me this
I don't wanna listen
But you insist
On repeatedly trying
To tell me lies
And I just don't know why

This is stupid
I'm not stupid
Dont talk to me
Like I'm stupid
I still love you
But I just cant do this
I may be dumb but
I'm not stupid

Trying to make this work
But you act like a jerk
Silly of me to keep
Holding on
But the dunce cap is off
You don't know what you lost
And you wont realize
Till I'm gone, gone, gone
That I was the one
Which one of us
Is really done

Ooh No No No
I'm not stupid in love

This is stupid
I'm not stupid
Dont talk to me
Like I'm stupid
I still love you
But I just cant do this
I may be dumb but
I'm not stupid

I may be dumb but
I'm not stupid
In love



at least theres someone caring n attentive towards u...
ME??? no one... don include my frens...
at least u got someone to forget me everything abt us...
ME?? no one...
u r so lucky than me...
ur life is so much easier than me...
how i wish im in ur position...
which means i will be in lesser pain n move on faster...
Its so wonderful to be guys...
Move on fast.. Feelings n emotions changes fast...
Everything fast...
Mayb gals tend to be more gullible...
So how can i not be strong headed??
BUT in e end, everyone thinks tat i can handle anything or
eveything well...
Tats y mayb ppl think tat i can be used or be bullied easily..
n i can be throw away jus like tat aft been used...
Im like a tissue paper...
used n throw...
sometimes i jus hate it...
so wat u r strong?? so wat u r weak??
haiz its so hard being a human...
sometimes i jus feel like i can be like those weak gals or
even pretty skinny small size gals...
They get more attention, they get more care...
They r not being said or critcise by ppl...
haiz... big size ppl doesnt get happiness??
Happiness always run away frm them??
Jus so tired of everything...
Wats my motive in life??
Wats my goal??
Wats my life about??
Wat things do i look forward to now..??
Im LOST... REAL FUCKING LOST...!!


Horoscope
Obligations or responsibilities at work, or an issue with the partner's parents, may prevent you from participating in something you had planned with a partner, Sagittarius. The good news is that it will be easy to resolve the misunderstanding or schedule mix-up. The bad news is that it will be very difficult to get a solid rain-check date after tomorrow. Don't press your luck and assume that everything is going to be OK. If this is about taking a new relationship to the next level, you can secure a commitment today.

LOVE Horoscope...
This could be a time, Scorpio, where some forgiveness is required in your romantic experiences. You may not necessarily be dealing with a romantic situation in the present, but rather one from the past where you have not truly forgiven. You always say that you leave the past in the past, but it is possible that you have not truly done so where this situation is concerned. Now is the time for you to truly let go, and by doing so, you open yourself up to the romantic possibilities that are right in front of you. If you have also been experiencing some health challenges in your practical life, you may be surprised at the healing power of forgiveness. By leaving past issues in the past, you create new energy that will be restorative from a health front as well. It is officially time to move on, so what else do you need to convince yourself of such?


Ive been telling myself to move on...
Been telling myself to be strong..
Been telling myself not to think anymore..
Been telling myself to forget everything..
All these seems easy BUT actually its diff...
Break up really do affect some of us badly..
BUT for some ppl its like peanuts..
Last time i always think its nothing for ppl to break up..
I always think i can handle it well..
N i can take it very easily..
But when im really facing this situation...
Its not wat i expected..

Im still wondering y do some ppl can take break up easily..
N y some ppl can jus change their love easily too...
haiz.. I still jus cant understand this point...
Y ppl can change lovers like changing clothes??
Do ppl really understand wat is e meaning of LOVE??
IS there really true love in this world??
Or love is jus a fairytale??
Or love is jus abt sexual intercourse??

i Shld haf jus stick to my stand, i shouldnt haf step into
tat trap four years back...
im still thinking of everything..
wats e cause of things landing like tat??
Is it really tat dinosaur??
Or is it me??
Or is it u??
Things get complicated when u really start growing older...
Sometimes how i wish im still a young innocent gal who noe nothing..

sometimes things jus flashes back...
Some of e things u said, i jus find its very hilarious..
Its bullshit.. its excuse..
Its jus to cover up all e shits u do..
n to make urself like a mr nice guy to anybody or even me..
Jus find myself stupid at times to really trust n believe in wat u say..
Im jus angry wif myself...
Haiz watever is it...
it happen...

Guys will always be guys...
guys can nv resist temptations..
there will nv be a perfect love life or watever shit..
Nothing is more impt than MONEY now...