Wednesday, August 20, 2008 | 3:52 PM
3rd year...
2day will be e exact date of US being 2gthr...
We've been 2gthr for 3 years...Of cos im happy...
Its not easy to maintain such a long r/s..
Ppl might say & think "Wow ur very long alrdy hor"
To me i will be tinkin its not long at all...
If i find it long now, wat bout e coming years...??
We both still haf a long way to go... How can i possibly say its long..??
Honestly saying Hes really a good guy to be wif...
In my life until my tis age, yeah hes my first love my first Bf...
but previously all e guys i knew frm internet or stuffs...
Or mayb met outside..
I've not met someone like him.. Mayb at times he is odd lah...
But really he is very good...
These few days might b wondering is there something wrong btween us..??
Or is it me e prob...
Been goin out wif last few weeks...
Hes been askin me y am i so unhappy when im out wif him...
Aft tis question pop to me, i was likw wondering too...
How come..?? Wats goin on?? wat happen to me..??
I don wish it to be like tat.. I always looking forward to our dates..
I also don noe wats e real reason for being unhappy wif little tiny stuffs...
I mean theres nothing for me to angry wif him...
Im jus scared... Im jus so confused...
I scared i lost e love for him...
Is it i don love him anymore or I don bare to let go of him...??
& i find myself so wierd...
Im so different frm other gals...
Like how come i doesnt find him like msg or call him..
Every gals does tat but y not me..??
& doesnt mean i do not care or love him...
But jus tat mayb i nv express it or show it...
But how come i nv show it??
yeah tats y im so wierdo...
& how come i cant be a small women when im wif him..??
Sometimes i also wanna b small women but seems like i cant...
y?? Its not tat great to be always seem so strong, big, feelingless & etc in front of everyone...
Ppl might think im always strong always laugh no matter wat happens...
But actually im not tat strong either...
I do haf weak times.. & Of cos which women doesnt wanna be loved & cared for..
& which women doesnt wanna love & care for a person she loves...
But jus tat how come i doesnt apply it when im feeling tat way...??
& y do ppl like to misunderstand my good...??
& which women don wanna haf e feeling during e honeymoon period where each couple started dating..?? Of cos i wan... & im also trying to make things to haf tat feeling in our r/s..
Is it bcos we r not loving enuf?? Or we r not compatible or communication breakdown??
Or we look more like siblings rather than couples..??
Haiz... I jus so confused... Im lost... I nd to tink deeply abt it...
